i like change.
or at least i used to,
before it got mean and started pushing me around.
leaving me feeling listless and damaged.
i am experiencing an overload of significant life changes, most of which don't feel particularly exciting or adventurous. i wish i could say that i am handling it all very gracefully. i wish there weren't so many things taking longer and weighing much heavier than i was prepared for.
this morning my mama told me "you're just pushing a lot of shit uphill right now" (which feels very accurate) "but you're strong, and you'll make it to the top sooner than you think." (which made me feel a little better).
things will turn around, i am certain.
i'll get back to that girl who loves change.
maybe i'm not as far from it as i think.
i embraced a little change today...
i changed my last name.
hello. my name is sarah marin moore,
and i am growing up.